Words from my Heart...

Alhamdullilah, Wasyukurilla... Alallamah Habib Umar Bin Muhammad bin Salim bin Hafiz..Ulama' dari Hadramawt, Yaman, telah sampai ke Singapura hari ini.... Hati ini telah niat hendak pergi ke Masjid Sultan untuk majlis utamanya... namun Tuhan lebih mengetahui....  Allah.... Diri ini....Tidak diizinkan kerana datangnya Haidh.  Badan juga rasa letih setelah hampir 2 minggu bermula kerja di pejabat pada jam 7 pagi.  Alhamdullilah juga diri ini beruntung dapat habis kerja jam 4 petang, sesuai sangat untuk hadir Tausiyah oleh Hubabah Nur, isteri kepada Habib Umar.  Acara bermula jam 5 petang tadi di Madrasah Aljunied Al Islamiah berdekatan dengan Masjid Sultan.  Alhamdullilah, Adik bersama Ummi pada waktu itu.....itulah yang buat Ummi syukur sangat.  Inilah sedikit dari Tausiyah Hubabah Nur yang dapat diri ini menulis tadi:  b-ismi-llāhi r-raḥmāni r-raḥīmi بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ "In the name of God, the Most Gra...

"Daripada keelokan Islam seorang ialah meninggalkan barang yang tak berguna kepadanya...."  hadith Hasan diriwayatkan oleh Tirmidzi & lain. To me...it means...apabila kita boleh tidur awal dah tinggal kan drama TV kerana mahu bangun malam untuk bertahajjud.  #Reminder

Alhamdullilah..... Kiddos, Ummi reached Juz' 8 today!! I am smiling...Yeah...... : ) #MyQuranJourney

I ts amazing how fast Mak is healing and how she is already up and About....The surgery cut is also healing nicely.  My heart is calm now that Mak is back home. Its true.... after hardship comes ease.... Alhamdullilah... Mak is back home, resting, receiving visitors. It was a total of 8 days in SGH.  The only change I have been observing is Mak tend to act very childishly now, almost like a kid who wants alot of attention.She talks like a kid and is extra Manja.  Hope, its just a post surgery syndrome and not anything permanent.... Went to 2 of Shaykh Afeefudin's lectures just now at Masjid Mydin and Masjid Alkaff.  2 really good classes where I got alot of advise...... He stressed for us to be thankful in times of happiness as well as trials. Say Alhamdullilah. Even if it is a test, say Alhamdullilah.... ALLAH will give a solution for it when we have no knowledge of how to solve the problem.  ALLAH knows what is best fo...

Had the chance to volunteer for an event last Saturday Night...as an usher... I am certain, I should just stick to being an attendee instead as I need to hear the talks rather than be a Volunteer. At this point of my life, I feel, I am more in need to listen to the speakers, take notes and learn. Nonetheless, It went OK....Alhamdullillah..an opportunity to help the community.  The talk was awesome...by my favorite speaker...Shaykh Abdul Aziz Ahmed Frederick at Max Atria.... This Shaykh....he is too humble. He does not like to be called Shaykh and he would rather play with children as that is his current job now.  But his Ilmu is just too deep and he is the epitome of humbleness.... The topic of the night was 'The Healing Heart'.... Shaykh Abdul Aziz spoke about depression...Its a type of mental illness, how real this illness is, and how to overcome it.  I personally believe, I have been hit my depression, especially after my so...

The good news we were waiting for this week, never came.... I am confuse..if I should be the good person and be the patient wife or just break down and refusing to even listen to anything.... Its most likely, this heart will choose to be good and patient. Insya'Allah.... The good news never came.  Uncertainties on what lies ahead. Both of us, feeling a little lost.  Part of me Redha....Part of me feels Bitter.....  I can let go, when I think of the less fortunate.....but I am not sure, how things will impact me....  Yes, I am confuse still.  What I know is I believe in Qadr and Qadar...as a Muslimah, I have to believe in what has been ordain and decree and it is one of the pillars in Rukun Iman.  I am reminded daily, of what Ustaz Hasbi taught me in one of his Tasawwuf class that I attended a few years back.  He said that Allah's Mercy is vast, and when Allah wants to give us Rezeki, it will be more than your ever...

NEVER ABANDON REPENTACE As it turns out, we made it to Habib Ali's talk yesterday at Masjid Muhajirin.  Again, ALLAH swt is showing me the power of making Intentions.  Habib Ali spoke about Repentance, Tawbah. One is to make at least 70 Istigfar in a day. That is the amount of Istigfar our Prophet Muhammad SAW made in a day.... so what more us, who has many many sins.... A staghfirullahal'adzim, alladzi la ilaha illa huwal hayyul qoyyumu wa atubu ilaih' Next is to put it in our hearts, that we will never make that mistake again. Last is to cautiously be aware that ALLAH SWT is watching us, thus we wont do the same sin again.  At the point that Habib kept talking on and on about Tawbah, I felt and know that I have made a huge sin recently and I need to go back to who I was before.  I have made many attempts to run back to ALLAH and to istigfar,.. however this heart of mine is not able to let go.  I keep on hoping that you w...

Allah..... This is so depressing.... yeah I only blog when I'm depress..ha-ha Its like a way I can let it Gooooo... I do not know if I should laugh or cry.  Tomorrow I have planned to go to Sentosa with a good friend, her son and my kiddos.....we shall return around 2 plus and I will get ready and go for my Wisdom tooth removal.  My friend had taken off just so her son can spend some time with my kids.  Who would have thought, my helper dropped a shocker and told me she needed to go home to Semarang as her daughter is in ICU due to a bad accident.  The kids for one are so dissapointed, I feel bad for them. Abang understands but he is sad, he cant meet his friend.  I am so skeptical as its the start of the school holidays and what better time to take some days off....but I know nothing can happen without the will of Allah. We plan. Allah plans. and HIS plans surpasses all. Nothing will happen without Allah's will.  ...

Something I've been reading every Jumaah....upon his advise..... surah Kaafi ayat 1-10 "Our Lord, grant us from Yourself mercy and prepare for us from our affair right guidance." - 18:10 Ameen Ameen Ameen.... innallaha wa malaikatahu yusalluna ‘alannabi ya ayyuhalladzina amanu shallu alaihi  wasallimu taslima.  Artinya,  Sesungguhnya Allah dan malaikat-malaikat-Nya bershalawat untuk Nabi. Hai orang-orang yang beriman, bershalawatlah kamu untuk Nabi dan ucapkanlah salam penghormatan kepadanya.”  (Q.S. al-Ahzab: 56).

  she walked passed me as if, she don't know me. Felt the hurt, for when she needed my help, I was there for her. When she needed my help, oh how good she would be to me. and this happens time and time again.   exactly......and I was hurt.....she is non other than my own ........   an advise came to me....from who else, but my advisor when I am down.   Hubby said:   The reason why you feel hurt is because you expect something for being good. When you expect something, you will be utterly disappointed .   Do good deeds without expecting anything in return. Allah will than reward you in ways you cannot imagine, maybe in the form of giving you good pious children.   For that, I nodded and I knew Allah swt wanted me to learn this lesson.    

I pen this in my thoughts this morning while on the way to work.... It came about when I remember my dissappointment is some of my friends, a lady who has returned to the ''straight'' path but still continues to smoke occasionally A charismatic boy, single father, from the madrasah but drinks A handsome young man drinking next to his mother and she is quiet who am I to judge? Everyone has a story to tell Thus it’s not fair to judge But a sin is but a sin   And the only way out is repentance They may repent one day, and God will accept it But Me? will I get to repent before my last breath? A thought worth pondering.

Rejab has arrived… It’s the start of 3 Holy month…… For the pas few years, I have felt that comes Rejab , the days are  a journey for me to reach Ramadhan and to end Ramadhan in a good way. Yet sometimes, the kids hinder my journey and I don’t mind at all cos I realized it’s the effort that counts and not the end result. So, with a happy heart, I have started to stop doing things that take my mind of GOD. Such as : -           I am trying to refrain myself from listening to the rock songs on my MP3… (they can be such a stress reliever after a hard day’s work) -           Watch lesser TV at night and read some Quranic verses instead (have to forgo the Malay dramas that I love to watch especially now that I have TV3 and TV9) -         -    Eating less and Qadhak my fast when my body feels well. Ramadhan month is something t...