Words from my Heart...

Alhamdullilah our new home is complete The toilets have been newly renovated by HDB and we have since moved back here again..Alhamdullilah..... I genuinely love our new home...its location and the layout.... I pray we can hold on to this house as long as we can The blessings left behind from the old owner can be felt Its our 3rd home together..I hope where ever you go, we will be together... I am alone in our room, waiting for you to come back... Everything feels complete except I feel empty inside. I feel rejected. I feel that the love you once had for me is gone...it comes and goes. When you remember her, I am a mere nothing.... I feel as if I am the lady the Hero don't love in the movie. No matter how good I am, I can never have that Top spot in your heart again. I feel like I am holding on to something that does not want to be held. I feel like I am the lady who does know know shame... to love a man who loves someone else.... But I am your wife.... Sh...

Things are getting stressful these days.... We will be moving from our humble 4 room abode to somewhere else in another district, insya'Allah to somewhere better. Ive done about 60% packing and Ive about 10 more days to complete the rest. Glad I have a helper, at least she provides help while I just go through which stuff to pack and which stuff to trow. Hubby and me seems to be really messy, we don’t have a clear list or box labels. I just write them on the box, so I guess Id better number the boxes and write them down on a paper at least I know how many box goes into storage…. The stress of these additional work has got to me, topped with the fact that I will be staying at the in-laws for about 2 weeks. There are no empty rooms for us at the in laws, so we will be bunking in the hall, and suddenly I get so depress of the vulnerability that I might be in. My chest feels tight and Ive been on Anerex (some sort of muscle relaxant) every night… Hubby does not ...