Words from my Heart...

While my babies (hubby and Princess Ash) napped deeply...I took the chance to get out of the super comfy King sized bed and had a quick Me TIME in the bathtub....the hot water warmed my back and I get to soak in for a while in all silence of the hotel room...the hair got shampooed and conditioned while the nude skin got soaped and smelled powdery....bliss.... luxury...even if it was for a while..... Gonna pray Jamak Qasar now..and my mind is on Abang who is in Casa Del Rio with Dadi and Aunty Mas... hope he is enjoying himself as well.....

Its a blessed friday.... It rained....Alhamdullilah..... Abang kept asking where will the sun set today....?  He is scared of qiyamah....He is truly afraid and can cry if he thinks about the world ending. UMMI told Abang..as long as there are people praying and as long as there are people reading the Quran....it wont be Qiyamah yet.... "Abang ada solat tak?" "Kadang-kadang" , he answered.... My dear son....don't abandon your prayers.... They are your pillars to your deeds.... Pray like its your last prayers....its not easy but its worth the effort. Ingat ye pesanan Ummi.... UMMI loves you...

It was a week ago,  When the truth hit me hard, and I had the realization,  I am sure, the feeling came from Allah, remember your text, when you said, you were hungry... zahir and batin... . The message just hit me hard.... We were at Wehdah.... I realised I had not cared for you, the way a proper wife would have... I had forced you to embrace what you are not comfortable with. I had not care for how you felt... I love you hubby, and will go back to my old ways.... Your feelings will be priority...not them, the talks and the Shaykhs.... I have to respect my hubby's feelings above anyone else.... What have I changed into??....It was me.. me.. me....but I forgot, that you have feelings too... I had place other's first before you, and I guess, that was the whole issue. I had wanted them to love me and be accepted yet you were never comfortable with them.  No one else should ever precede over you..... I am really looking forward...

Hi Sayangs... We celebrated our 11th Wedding Anniversary last Friday night......It was rather simple this year, yet it felt adequate.  Nothing extravagant and fancy....But I felt thankful and loved.  Had planned for a romantic dinner all week but since I wasn't well, we settled for a wholesome family dinner instead. Kids were not in the invited guest list, but after coming home from a tiring full week at work and facing 'hungry attention-seeking kids', we decided to just bring the kiddos of dinner....Oh well... the more, the merrier...furthermore...there woud'nt be us without them. And they are what our love is gelled by.  We had delicious Sirloin steak and dessert at Chef Amri's Le Steak jalan Kayu....and moved to bigger choice of dessert and coffee at Savoury just next door to Le Steak... Great weather for Al Fresco dining.... Overall, we had a great time, having dinner as a family, chatting away on how Ummi and Abah met....I'm sure you kids rem...

I have been sick for about a week... Not sure how bad my asthma will get... NOT SURE if it will ever be cured. I have been living with childhood asthma..... It comes n goes. Feb-mar season are the worse. I am sleepy but I can't sleep. It seems the cough meds are making my mind work overtime.... Kids are asleep.... its really gonna be hard to head back to work tomorrow after full weekend with the kiddos.... I love them with all my heart... The kids are better n ready for school after a week of high fever. Just took some prednisolone tabs for the lungs and a salbutomol tab... n wiped balm all over my chest.... I'm wheezing.... pretty bad.... Thinking of work tomorrow. So far 2 mcs before March ended....I hate MCs..... makes the bosses think we are weak and uncapable despite how hard we work.....or so I feel. Today, while driving back from our morning stroll at PASIR RIS.....I had to do an eBrake coz I realised the Red light a little too late. Abang who was beside me in...

Adik loves Ummi too much. Adik is not selfish with her hugs and kisses Adik is just the daughter I had hoped to have Adik is a little clingy, very positive and always imaginative Be like Adik. : ) Love you baby girl.  Ummi loves you always.