Words from my Heart...

We had the biggest fight of the year....I think its been so long that I didn't blare out like that. I totally was disappointed and upset with him.   Still upset, yet I don't want to drag this. Its hurts. yet I think of the kids.....   Life goes on, this will only make our relationship stronger   Adik and Me drew something for him. He is a scuba diver you see. We paste the drawings right next to where he sleeps.   Tonight when He gets home, I know this will make him smile and love us a million times more... Insya'Allah...

Its been such a busy Month ....unexpectedly I was assigned a project, Adhoc. The cooling November rain didn't making it easy. As I type this, I am down with a bad runny nose, sitting in an office far far away from the east, supporting my customers on a new system which have loads of bugs. It hasn't been easy these few days. I go out really early and I reach home late. The new helper situation has been tiring as well.  My body ached badly and I impulsively booked a "2day1night Batam package" sans the hubby and kids for a alone retreat to a spa. I don't know why I did that and I dont know how I will be able to leave my clingy Adik for the weekend gateway but I will have too if God Permit as I have paid for the tickets. I have been working here in Jurong, almost for 10 days now. The days are not easy, there are some difficult questions and they do shout and blare at my ears cos of the change that they have to go through. I cried and I in turn tell hubby ...

Abang came home with his English' test scores. Dissapointingly, he could have passed with just another 1 mark. What tickled me much was Abang wrote 15, and "sory rong" He meant to say "Sorry Wrong, the marks should be 15 instead of 14. When I scolded him for failing the test, Abang said " Ummi I passed. There, teacher wrote "15 sory rong for writing 14" Boy Boy...who was he kidding? Of course, I told him to stop lying and that his Spelling error sold him off. He smiled coyly, embarassed that he was caught lying. Slowly step by step......I encouranged Abang to do better next time and that he could have passed if he attempted more questions. Sadly, when we went through the questions, he could give me the answers. But he was lazy to write it down, hence alot of it went un-answered. Really, I want to try and help him...hopefully, he can improve next year.... Insya'Allah.

Watched a hindi movie "English Vinglish" over the weekend. Only managed to catch the end part actually..... Heartfelt movie I feel...... This excerpt was a dialogue by Sri Devi the lead actress in the show. found it really heartwarming and the words seems to be stuck in my head for quite a while now. "Meera... Kevin... Maybe you'll very busy... but have family... son... daughter. In this big world... your small little world, it will make you feel so good. Family... family can never be... never be... never be judgemental! Family will never... put you down... will never make you feel small. Family is the only one who will never laugh at your weaknesses. Family is the only place where you will always get love and respect. That's all Meera and Kevin... I wish you all the best. Thank you. " Sad, sometimes Family is not where we get love and respect. Sometimes, amongst siblings, there can be rivalry and snobbishness. Amongst husband and wife, ...

  There are days when some ignorant ladies looked at me and gossip   ......They made me stop.   Than I met Johnny and I went "Woah....!"   *just for laughs*    

  Brave Mommy?   Tough cookie Mommy?   Alhamdullilah.....some acknowledgment from Abang's Cikgu.   I am not the sort who wants praise or acknowledgment. I guess I do things because I have to and because I care too much for Abang. The more he challenges me, the more my prayers are for him.   All I need is support, understanding and encouragment.   At times I do feel I am alone in this journey.... It is not easy to have a kid who does badly in school. It is not easy to face the teachers.   But messages like this from Abang's teachers do tell me that there are others who understands, others who know it is not easy and they understand the stress that I face as a working mommy who comes home and needs to ensure her son's homework gets done and that he is at least aware of his subject matters.   At this moment of time, I DO NOT expect Abang to be a top A student but I do want him to behave in school and pa...

Am I devastated....?   Abit....   Am I going to be sad and bring my whole family down with my sadness?   No......!   How can I? When I have learnt that if you want to be a Mukmin, than expect to be Tested. Allah swt test those HE loves. Our children are our Test in this lifetime. How can I give up?? This is NOT the end of the world. I am glad, my test comes in the form of This. It CAN be much worse than This. There are so many more things that is worse than ADHD. Seriously. Dear Me, Chin up. Be there for your boy every step that you can, and let Allah handle the rest. Love Me " And certainly, We shall test you with a bit of fear, hunger, loss of wealth, lives and fruits. But give glad tidings to the patient ones who, when afflicted with a calamity, say: “Truly! To Allah we belong and truly, to Him we shall return.” They are those upon whom are the blessings, descend from their Lord, and they receive His Mercy, and it...