Words from my Heart...

Abang came home with his English' test scores. Dissapointingly, he could have passed with just another 1 mark. What tickled me much was Abang wrote 15, and "sory rong" He meant to say "Sorry Wrong, the marks should be 15 instead of 14. When I scolded him for failing the test, Abang said " Ummi I passed. There, teacher wrote "15 sory rong for writing 14" Boy Boy...who was he kidding? Of course, I told him to stop lying and that his Spelling error sold him off. He smiled coyly, embarassed that he was caught lying. Slowly step by step......I encouranged Abang to do better next time and that he could have passed if he attempted more questions. Sadly, when we went through the questions, he could give me the answers. But he was lazy to write it down, hence alot of it went un-answered. Really, I want to try and help him...hopefully, he can improve next year.... Insya'Allah.

Watched a hindi movie "English Vinglish" over the weekend. Only managed to catch the end part actually..... Heartfelt movie I feel...... This excerpt was a dialogue by Sri Devi the lead actress in the show. found it really heartwarming and the words seems to be stuck in my head for quite a while now. "Meera... Kevin... Maybe you'll very busy... but have family... son... daughter. In this big world... your small little world, it will make you feel so good. Family... family can never be... never be... never be judgemental! Family will never... put you down... will never make you feel small. Family is the only one who will never laugh at your weaknesses. Family is the only place where you will always get love and respect. That's all Meera and Kevin... I wish you all the best. Thank you. " Sad, sometimes Family is not where we get love and respect. Sometimes, amongst siblings, there can be rivalry and snobbishness. Amongst husband and wife, ...

  There are days when some ignorant ladies looked at me and gossip   ......They made me stop.   Than I met Johnny and I went "Woah....!"   *just for laughs*    

  Brave Mommy?   Tough cookie Mommy?   Alhamdullilah.....some acknowledgment from Abang's Cikgu.   I am not the sort who wants praise or acknowledgment. I guess I do things because I have to and because I care too much for Abang. The more he challenges me, the more my prayers are for him.   All I need is support, understanding and encouragment.   At times I do feel I am alone in this journey.... It is not easy to have a kid who does badly in school. It is not easy to face the teachers.   But messages like this from Abang's teachers do tell me that there are others who understands, others who know it is not easy and they understand the stress that I face as a working mommy who comes home and needs to ensure her son's homework gets done and that he is at least aware of his subject matters.   At this moment of time, I DO NOT expect Abang to be a top A student but I do want him to behave in school and pa...

Am I devastated....?   Abit....   Am I going to be sad and bring my whole family down with my sadness?   No......!   How can I? When I have learnt that if you want to be a Mukmin, than expect to be Tested. Allah swt test those HE loves. Our children are our Test in this lifetime. How can I give up?? This is NOT the end of the world. I am glad, my test comes in the form of This. It CAN be much worse than This. There are so many more things that is worse than ADHD. Seriously. Dear Me, Chin up. Be there for your boy every step that you can, and let Allah handle the rest. Love Me " And certainly, We shall test you with a bit of fear, hunger, loss of wealth, lives and fruits. But give glad tidings to the patient ones who, when afflicted with a calamity, say: “Truly! To Allah we belong and truly, to Him we shall return.” They are those upon whom are the blessings, descend from their Lord, and they receive His Mercy, and it...

  I thought I would be strong enough to hear the truth from the DR. Hubby was not with me for our 1st appoint at CGC. I told Hubby not to go as he has a meeting. “Its Ok dear, I am on leave so I can handle it. You concentrate on your work.” Boy was I wrong. When the DR spoke to me about Abang’s condition and most importantly the stuff about the medicine and its side effects,   I was dying inside and if I did not control it well, I swear I could have bawled my eyes out in front of the Dr. “Dr, is it a stigma for my son to have ADHD?” It is very common to have ADHD in Singapore. 1 out of 20 kids have ADHD here. The Dr shared that his patients have grown to be Doctors, Lawyers and Teacher. My oldest patient at the moment still on Retalin is a 28 year old Teacher, he said. Anyway, we will have to go for more follow up. It might not even be ADHD but Learning Disability. It might be both. ADHD cannot be diagnosed on the 1 st appointment. It...

1 st Child Guidance Clinic appointment.   3.15pm: The clinic was huge. It was bare. Not crowded at all. I could have counted about 4 pairs of mum and child pair. The clinic was in the basement. The surroundings were cold and quiet....Unlike a normal child clinic. Abang and me entered awkwardly. There was a tall retarded boy, walking around. A nurse asked if he was behaving well in school and he answered yes, he is 1 st in his class. *smiles*   The nurse encouraged and cheered him on.   Obviously, he is a regular to them. He seemed well like by the nurses. The retarded boy laughed happily. There were a few boys and a girl around 8-9 years old. They seemed hard to manage. Their face showed anger and resentment.   Their guardian beside them looked tired. Here I am with my son, who looks very normal when compared to these kids.   I asked myself silently ,”Why am I here?” Upon registration, I was given a few sheets of paper t...