Words from my Heart...

Meltdowns happens quite a lot with Abang. At times, he is the sweetest boy. At times, he will be cranky, angry and challenging. The most common words he uses  or says to me when he is upset and crying are:   "I Hate You" " I wish you will Die" Imagine, How do I feel as his mother. Here I am, tired after work, sitting next to him, coaching and assisting him with his school work. Istigfar....Sabar...Ya Rabb...Engkau lebih Mengetahui.   Tonight, same thing..another meltdown cos Abang wanted to eat yet we were in the midst of doing his homework. Furthermore, he already ate his dinner 2 hours ago....   He cried and said those hurtful words when I told him to concentrate. I told him that he was overweight and to forget about eating more food for the night.   I am tired...but we had to complete the Maths Homework. We had already completed more than half.   I stood firm. I refused to give in. He shouted at me..than when I stood up, ...

  Dear Abang   If one day, you read this my son.... do know that your Ummi loves you very much. The most important for Ummi is that you turn into a righteous, steadfast, wise and happy man. Lead a positive life. Leave what is Haram. Seek God's pleasure. Work hard, enjoy life, treat your family well.   Remember God and Rasullulah at all times. Pray. Zikir. Selawat. Life will be a struggle but you can succeed with hard work and being earnest and truthful.   Lots of love.... Ummi.   I kept thinking about my last entry.... No, I don't think my son is special needs. It does not feel right to say that. I'm am  NOT the mother to a special needs boy.   My son has A.D.H.D Abang is impulsive, active and has trouble focusing for long. He is good in Malay and English but fails in Maths. He can be independent, he can go out on his own and he can go to the toilet on his own. He has his own ideas and now wants ...