Words from my Heart...

It' has been awhile since the both of you got sick together.... This time, its rather bad. Both fever temperature went up till 40degrees... Initially Ummi felt that it was just normal fever.  But when the both of you lost your appetite and stayed in bed the whole Sunday, dozing in and out of sleep while your bodies felt hot as the mid day sun, I got worried.  The house went quiet as I sat by your beds, occasionally reading the Quran. Sponging endlessly and changing the cold towel which as gone warm from your body heat.  Adik could not eat. Abang ate chicken and prawn porridge.  Both vomitted.  Ummi drove to Pasir Ris Mcdonald's drive thru to buy you some fish burger. At least you could probably eat that, Adik.... At the same time, the highway drive was invigorating for my tired soul after the morning fight with Abah. I'm sorry kiddos. I know the both of you hated it. I slammed the accelerator and wanted to go as fast as I could. Alas...

Mum was admitted again last night..... after spending 6 hours at A n E, she finally got a bed..... Her fistula veins got spoilt again and she had not gotten her morning dialysis...her legs got swollen At 10pm, she was brought to the cold surgery room to get her neck poked with a catheter. At 1am, she had her dialysis.... Alhamdullilah, today her legs got better.  Next Tues will be her ballooning surgery.... I cant describe how tiring this journey has been..... especially, the leave application and the journey to and fro the hospital. But I pray, my kiddos sees this journey and if ever I need them when I am old, they would be there for me.... Insya'Allah..... as for mum, I realized, she is a very strong lady.....else, she would not have been put through this test....

Alhamdullilah..... Kiddos, Ummi reached Juz' 8 today!! I am smiling...Yeah...... : ) #MyQuranJourney

Just a quick update on Ummi's agenda this year..... Sorry Kids,  Ummi have not been blogging much. Could be, I'm having some kind of a writer's block. Not that there is nothing to write or update.  Well, after  months of not touching the Quran, I am finally reading it again.  Alhamdullilah...still at Juz 7. Seems like Juz 7  is just too long .  Done with Surah Al Maedah and now reading Surah An'Am. With me, I have the translation of the Quran and reading it gives me goosbumbs...... Can I actually qatam this year and give my parents the present of wearing a crown in Akhirah??? I am also exercising again after more than 7 months break. I gained nearly 10kg in weight and now I have to slowly lose it...... How difficult but it can be done if I set my mind to it.  Exercising is Sunnah right.....? I am trying to qadhak my fast from last Ramadhan...so far, I have finished 2 days and maybe 6 more to go before Ramadhan sets in.... I...

Abang, you were selected to go for Camp for Friends 2016 Even though you were reluctant to go cos you were afraid you'd wet the bed cos Bibik wont be around to wake you up for Toilet break but, Mdm Tuty and Ummi managed to convince you to go.... 2 days 1 night Friday to Saturday....and Alhamdullilah, you didnt wet the bed!! Alhamdullilah..you enjoyed the camp. Feedback from the teachers was that you were great. Happy and enjoyed it. Ummi had fun bonding with you through the camp games. You lost your socks, didn't know how to fold your sleeping bag and didn't get to bath the way you always do, but most importantly, I managed to let you go and learn a little independence.... You may not know it sayang...but Ummi Loves you.... You are indeed the special one for me.