Words from my Heart...

so......Mak decided to stay with Abang.... He will be moving to a big landed property He will be giving Mak her own room on the ground floor Mak can use all the air con she wants Mak can have her own garden again.  suddenly, her promise to me changed.... My heart is broken... i AM happy for Abang and his family but I really wanted Mak to stay with me suddenly I question my own intentions....all these while, its only me and sis who has been going up and down the hospital appointments with Mak...and if Mak has any problems, it was always me that had to listen and help..... and who does she choose to stay with, not me.  I had looked forward to have her stay with me..even though our home is not big and we are not wealthy, we are considered OK. Medium. average.... Our house is blessed. We pray.... we go to the masjid.... Yet..... Its not easy to be truly ikhlas . Especially when we don't feel appreciated.  Texted Bro K....who understands and gave me som...

I must give myself a pat on the back... I planned and organised this birthday bash with a little help from my love ones for Abang's 10 year old Birthday....It wasn't easy.....but well worth it...and I paid for everything except or the food which was taken care by Abah. Credits:  Civil Servant Bunglow : by BIL I artwork for Invites: SIL kin kin Goodybag preparation: SIL kin kin Goodybag stickers: sponsored by Kak Mims UTS Jellies: half priced 'Mak' Mariah Brownies: discounted and made with lottsa love by my colleague 'kak Siti' Soccer cake: Swensons Decor: done by collegues and girlfriends Food set up : Mak and MIL Food prepared by: kak Noraini WJ BBQ: BIL E Monetary gift for Abang's new bicycle and handphone : Family Actually, the yearly practice was just a birthday dinner at Swensons... Hmm ...I did celebrate his birthday with the bigger family when Abang was 1 and 2 years old...after that, I stopped cos I never liked ...

Have'nt been able to do any blogging since Ramadhan.... Didn't expect that the whole family was gonna fall in ill at the end of Ramadhan This year, Eid happened to be only lukewarm with us visiting about 10 houses every weekend. We also did not receive much visitors because we were sick all the time.... I must say, this must be one of the most quiet Eid.  As I am typing this now, I am still nursing one of my worse cough episode in history...Its nearly a month with 2 MCs in the bag. X-Ray results showed my chest is good and no signs of pneumonia or any lung infections.   Mak making Dua on the night of Shawal This was with Mak on the night of Shawl 2016 @ Masjid Al Abdul Razak.  I am so thankful, she got to be at the masjid with me and her cucus that night.....it seems to be a yearly tradition that I bring her to the masjid for takbir. Thank you Allah for allowing me to spend time with my mother. Ameen.