Words from my Heart...

Mum in a wheelchair at SGH A&E at 4am The past few days has been rather tiring. I haven’t had proper sleep, waking up at 3.30am. I wake up, go to the toilet, take wudhuk and have been doing night prayers. I pray for mummy’s health and that the suffering would not be much. Sometimes I read Ratib, or surah Yasin or just recite selawat Syifa many times. I sleep again at 5am and wake up for the day’s events at 6.15am. Mummy is now alone, in isolation ward, because the Drs need to check if she has TB in her lungs. She has been tested positive for TB in her spine… Meaning 6 weeks of Antibiotics under IVF drip… Allah : ( I can sense she wants to give up. She misses home. She misses her grandkids, but I am in really no control of when she can be discharged. This antibiotics also comes with its own side effects eg liver and nerves failure. But then again, all medications comes with a risk of side effects although it’s low. Last week I sent mum to SGH at 4am,...

Everytime mum goes into hospital, My life will go topsy turvy For a start, the hospital is not near home, from Tampines to Outram is quite a journey. The journey itself is tiring as the walk to the hospital blocks are a challenge when going with kids. To Drive there also takes effort. Not having time on my side also drains me and I have to juggle a full time career, kids schoolwork/tuition and time for visiting mum and speaking to the drs all at once. you feel me? We took mum out from CGH after a minor commotion at the ward when Mas went against the Drs advise to get mum out. Her fever was down but the scans showed something unusual. I will be sending mum to SGH later tonight... maybe ard 3 am to beat the A&E crowd We have to get Mum warded there instead. The DRs at SGH seems more knowledgeable and sure, thus leaving us feeling at ease. CT scan showed some pus on the bottom of her spine....causing the excruciating pain that mum have been putting up w...

Back from hiatus.  The past few mths was spent on caring, fussing and spending time with the kids and immersing my concentration on their school work and their well being of adjusting to a new class with new teachers.  I tried to heal myself by forgetting about that one person whom I had yearned for.  I cut off all contacts and I spend my free time, reading the Quran.  I tried to drown my sorrows by cooking for the kids, I thought I was doing well, on the road to happiness.... but even that didn't really prepare me for what I was told a few moments earlier. Mum has a spine infection and she has to be warded longer. The Dr's at CGH is not farmiliar with this bug, thus more test would have to be done. I am praying her MRI scan results will be negative of anything deadly. 2 days ago, I rushed mum to the hospital at 3am in an Ambulance. It was my first ambulance ride and I never thought, that one day I would be sitting in front of an ambulance, while mak sits...