Words from my Heart...

Alhamdullilah , All Praise to Allah. I am thankful. God eased my worries and send some rainbow over my sadness. I am thankful, that God answered our prayers. I do not know how long this change will last in Abang, or it is a start to something better, but I am elated that Abang has shown some kind of improvement. I made alot of dua ( prayers ) , and so did many other people, be it I know or I don't. Alot of people care for Abang, as much as there are other who loath him. Allah, the Merciful, must have granted our prayers. Thank you to those who encouraged me on. You know who you are. May Allah bless you all. Since the opening of Term 4, Abang somehow behaved in school. His teacher changed the class seating position, so he longer sits right in front and nearest to the teacher. She also made him a group leader. He came back happy, beaming of his new 'Title" and told me he enjoys collecting his classmates books. He has to finish his work, as he is the leader. S...

She talks about me as if I cannot hear. She looks irritated when I talk.     She questions my every word. And nothing I do is ever good enough. No encouragement what so ever. And the sad part is we are both Muslims, praying to the same GOD. You used to be close to me. We used to pray together and chit chat about life. Have I done something so wrong to you? Have I hurt or offended you in any way? If I did, It must be my own stupidity that I didnt notice. Do I owe you my existence? I ts hurts lah....I am here to do my work. I am still learning. I am not in anyway more superior that you. I am not disturbing your rice bowl. I want to learn from you. So why do you hate me so much? ............

Hubby made a good decision by booking a 1 night stay at Thistle Johor for September school Holidays. It was something impromptu and unplanned. I took half day leave on Thursday and left office at 12.30pm sharp. We settled lunch and Zohr prayers and left for Johor straight. Despite the long jam, we reached the hotel at 4.50pm to check in. While hubby slept, I brought the kids down for swimming. After swimming, we were all so hungry again, so I woke hubby up and we all got ready to find our way to Senibong! A well know area for seafood over the atap wood around the Johor Straits. Thistle hotel is  located very conveniently near the causeway and has a nice view of the Danga Bay. There are many food area around it and many mosque too. So food is no problem at all. The hotel is still in good condition, staff service and Breakfast spread was extensive. However, the baby pool was a little too deep for Adik and she only swam around the steps area at the pool. For dinn...

  Dont you agree? That no matter what, only you as the mother can understand how much you love your kids and why you love your kids... Its the bond that a mother and her children have.   This the exact reason when some other looks at Abang is a different light, I don't.   No matter the tears, he will still be the sweet boy I know.   And I can never give up on my son.   I am thankful, he is healthy and active. I am thankful. He can run, and play eventhough he is rough, he can still play. I am thankful, Abang can walk on his own, eat on his own and bath on his own. There are endless things to be thankful for when it comes to Abang alone despite the challenges.   Eventhough he is not independant for his age, as he is very dependant on adults, he will be one day.   and I will always pray, that Abang will have a good future and be a good Muslim when he grows up.   Amin.   xoxo   ...

  Yesterday.....wasn't the first time that Abang went on excursion. But It was his first since primary one started.   Abang was on medication for cough, but this puffy face boy still insisted on following his classmates to the Singapore Science Centre. As usual, since he wanted to go, I will allow.   At 4pm, Abang called me while I was in a meeting. I took the call as I wanted to know if he got into any kind of trouble during the trip.   "Ummi, I was left in the bus when the rest of my classmates alighted down to The Science Centre because I was asleep. The bus driver discovered me and send me back again".. he said semi-excited.   My heart dropped. "What?! Why....?? Didn't anyone noticed you? Didn't your classmates wake you up? Didnt your teacher did a head count before letting the big bus go off? "   So many questions ran through my mind. As a mother, my mind quicky imagined the bus driver to be someone foreign and...

  A cousin recommended I watched this HINDI movie : - )   TAARE ZAMEEN PAR ~ LIKE STARS ON EARTH The movie is about a boy who couldn't read or write, very disobedient, naughty and hyper-active and causing a lot of anger amongst the teachers in his school. He cannot focus in class, and have been failing his exams throughout. His parents who couldn't not take the persistent complaints from the teachers and people around him, decided to ship send him off to Boarding School hoping, he will change his attitude and become a changed and good boy. This boy could not even button his own shirt, always depending on his loving yet Stressed mother to help him around his daily activities. (Sounds like Abang and Me? ) There, the boy grew even more lost, until, he was noticed by a teacher (the multi talented and dashing Aamir Khan) who cared to find out why the boy behaved in such a way. (Masya'Allah)...... The story leads us to go through deeper reasons and pare...

Lots of times, when Abang fails his test, I will scold him and wonder what is wrong with my son.... At times I wonder if his brains are working well. There are 'talks' going around with his teahers  in school that Abang might Learning Disability (LD) But at the bottom of my heart, I know my son is intelligent. He can hold conversations with adults better most kids can. During Eid visiting, the adults will always talk to him and he will entertain them with his stories. Compared to his sister who is shy, Abang likes to mingle with relatives.   Today, he proved to me that he IS smarter than me! We were at Long John's Silver deciding what to have for lunch when the table we were seated at was not cleared of the trays. We waited for a long time for our table to be cleared so that I can ordered the food, but the place was packed, and I didn't even see an cleaner going around clearing table. Ummi: How about we go across to Texas Chicken? It does l...