Words from my Heart...

2015 has moved so fast, almost like a train.... This year, I remember : 1. Adik started Pri 1 with alot of resistance and crying, eventually, she is now a model pupil. Still learning to cope with Pri Sch life... Abit Kan Cheong with all her school work, everything has to be perfect....I can see the resilience n motivation in her. Alhamdullilah.  2. Coped with Abang's school work,found myself to be more relax in pushing him this year. Abang knows the importance of school work and has improved in his behavior in school, however, still alot of effort needs to be placed in terms off studies...Abang still needs Alot of encouragement...... 3. Hubby stopped work at OXXXXX after some bitter events from his new boss, took some time to figure out what he actually wants, eventually now settled for work with a Canadian based TelCo supporting a local carrier. A little bit more flexible, suitable for his style of working, 'start late, finish late' ....At times, there a...

My heart was in tears when I saw 'N' at the food centre that I frequent regularly. He is now a waiter there, limping and serving food. He looked pitiful.  ‘N’ used to be my classmate in primary school from P1 to P3. He sat next to me and often assisted me in my school work. Not only was he smart, he was also active and good looking, boyish Indian Muslim look. We lost touch after Primary school and I met him again in 2007 when I was working at Novena. I remembered a handsome man, smoking outside the office building. He called out my name and I was surprised that he even could recognize me let alone, remember my name after all these years.  We spoke and I told him I was married with 1 son, while he told me he was still single. He also told me that he was a plain clothes policeman. Happy that he was doing well, I didn’t think much of the meeting till I met him again at Masjid Mydin a few years later. He was still looking OK. Back to my story on N working at the food ce...

My heart felt pain and sadness when I read of the passing of the charismatic Johor Prince.  I cant even imagine the amount of sadness his family felt, let alone his mother's feelings Our Kids are our amanah. Anytime, they can be taken away. I love my kids...I enjoy spending time with them.  When we go out. (usually, its just the 3 of us)  Ummi love to look at your antiques and immerse myself in all our conversations as if , every stories shared was precious. Ummi want the both of you to have a happy childhood.  Tonight Ummi allowed the both of you to play in the heavy rain, despite it being only a mere 10 minutes of fun. You laughed and dance..... People who saw us thought we were weird! I wished I could join you both!  I told you both, it was Sunnah to play in the rain. You were both shocked, but relished the moment.  Do you remember kids? You told me it was the best night .... Happy moments indeed. 

Lately, There is a strong feeling in me.... That is ... I need to change.... I NEED a CHANGE but I kept on procrastinating and tell myself that it will start in 2016, the day I turn another year older. These are my thoughts of late..... 1. More attention on the kids studies and Akhlaq. This needs alot of time, effort and Dua. More researching on ways to help Abang cope and change. 2. Quran reading - Aim to Qatam Quran for the first time in 2016.  3. Solat - To never miss a prayer. Something till now, I am not able to put full focus on due to work and tiredness.  4. Less meet ups with friends if not necessary. There are a few groups of girlfriends that I meet for dinner every month. Maybe, I can cut down on this or maybe, I should only go if hubby gives full approval. All this while, I assume he allows and never seeks his permission.  5. More time with Le Hubby...even if he is too Busy, I need to find time to have at least a small coffee session w...

I ts amazing how fast Mak is healing and how she is already up and About....The surgery cut is also healing nicely.  My heart is calm now that Mak is back home. Its true.... after hardship comes ease.... Alhamdullilah... Mak is back home, resting, receiving visitors. It was a total of 8 days in SGH.  The only change I have been observing is Mak tend to act very childishly now, almost like a kid who wants alot of attention.She talks like a kid and is extra Manja.  Hope, its just a post surgery syndrome and not anything permanent.... Went to 2 of Shaykh Afeefudin's lectures just now at Masjid Mydin and Masjid Alkaff.  2 really good classes where I got alot of advise...... He stressed for us to be thankful in times of happiness as well as trials. Say Alhamdullilah. Even if it is a test, say Alhamdullilah.... ALLAH will give a solution for it when we have no knowledge of how to solve the problem.  ALLAH knows what is best fo...

Been Visiting Mak daily at SGH daily... Could not bear not visiting Mak...even though I feel so tired from work.  Alhamdullilah I am so thankful, Bibik does the morning visits to bath and clean Mak... She is really street smart and can go to SGH by train on her own.  I do not know how to repay Bibik..... She has taken alot of load off me in terms of physical strength....I am breathless most of the time.  Alhamdullilah Mak is feeling better today... She could do some exercise and and her legs feel better. Not as painful as before... could be the input of Calcium through her neck.  Dr Jeremy Ng from SGH is indeed an excellent Doctor. He has treated my mother well and did the Paratyroid surgery as neat and careful as possible.  Not only is he experience, he also has a caring and gentlemanly character of a Man.  The card that I gave him cannot compare to how much he has helped us. Always there when I have any queries and easily re...

I am tired.... I am busy.... Helpdesk is shorthanded and busy.... Too many task, still pending....but my mind is on Mum's recovery. The errand girl in the family for mum....the problem solver for mum.. first call: "Wheres my wallet?? I cant find my wallet....!!" second call "Where is my clothes..I need my clothes....!!" third call "My fruit basket is missing...Someone took it!!!" fourth call "Are you coming?? You better come ok" The one who has to listen to Mum's whims and fancies.... Am I just that?? ............ Can I run away?? ..............